Well, it's been ages since I really bothered to take a look at my blog and spend some time blogging. I don't know why i stopped. But since the new year is coming and well, why not yeah end the year with this entry?

Alhamdullillah I survive 2009 with a couple of hiccups. The decision to have the car was kinda incidental because I never thought I would have one so soon. And somehow, I had to choose between education and the car. Both just came up at the same time (really!). It's just one of those situations which I really can't explain but I am so glad that all issues resolved and now I just need to think about using my money wisely. I almost gave up on the education because I was having a hard time with the loan but alhamdullillah, we did it. (we = my mum & i)

I really wanna thank my mum for helping me out with the decision-making because i would probably just give up. i dont know how she did it, but my mum is really a strong-willed person. i am not surprised that most of my relatives look up to her because she is the only woman that i know of who could withstand and brave through all the stormy weathers but yet keeping it cool and still maintaining her cute lil antics. she plays a huge part in my life and i am so glad to have her as my mother. (before i was typing this, i just had a tiff w my mum and she's still giving me the cold shoulder.tsk.)

i am a point in my work life when i feel like doing something different, but then again i love this job. get it? there're so many politics going on at that workplace and i'm just hoping that i would survive all that and keep this job for a while more. i've rejected a proposal for a post that i know i wouldn't be able to do it because i am just not up for it. give me a year or two and insyaallah maybe by then i would have the confidence to do so. until then i'm sticking to this job.

i've been flying solo for more than a year now and only managed a couple of dates throughout the year. well after two failed relationships i wasnt sure if i am up for another one. as quoted from kak lin's blog, "Maybe back then, she never really believed that the right guy would come. After all, one bad experience after another was a sure way in convincing someone that good things will not come." Well said, Kak Lin even though that wasn't even meant for me. Hahah. But yes, i wasnt sure abt finding the right guy. dating felt like a window shopping to me. oh well even now i am still not ready. i'm kinda used to being single that the idea of not being one freak me out a little.

all said and done i only wish for a better year in 2010. i have not made my resolution yet and probably will not. i dont remember making one last year except wishing for a better 2009.  i am gonna leave 2009 behind with memories only i can hold on to. i had fun yesterday with the usual bunch of people for my prebday celebration. as always, they made me feel loved. lol. i love the prank bcos i dared them to do it. when i was washing up after the prank, i swear in my mind i felt like i was washing away all my misery and troubled past in 2009.

come what may, i am all ready to embrace 2010. happy new year to those who still read my blog!

xoxo.

(p.s: it took me an hour to write this down. lol)